hello there (:im ronniiieee. Currently HIskulovin' i have many hobbies but very few passions. & this is my tumblr.
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Everything’s moving so fast. I wish it could slow down. I wish I could spend more time with more people before high school ends.
I wish my friends weren’t all moving away and going to different colleges.
I just want to find peace of mind. I want happiness. I want to grow. I want to learn.
I think this is love. You make me do reckless things, I just hope you change your mind. I hope that you look at me the way you once did. You keep me sane but drive me crazy at the same time, you make me feel protected, you take care of me when you know I need to be taken care of. You give me space and give me the chance to grow because you know me well enough that I hate to be babied. I think this is love. This may not be a boyfriend/girlfriend type of love but I think this is a type of love that can grow to that… and if it doesn’t I think I’ll be fine with that.
I can’t imagine losing you anymore, I can’t stand the fact that soon you’ll be leaving me but I know you’ll do great out there, you’ll pursue your dreams and ultimately do what makes you happy and maybe find someone who’ll make you twice as happy as your random friend typing this. I promise I’ll always be there for you like all my other friends, I promise even if down the lane we somehow drift a part because that’s what time does, it makes people loose in touch, I just want you to know that I truly do love you, love you like a brother, love you like a friend, love you like a lover. I just wanted to put that out there, this is honestly how I feel, this is the love I feel.
He was more than just a friend. He will always be more than just a friend. Even if fate pulls us apart, I will always think of him just as is.
I don’t know if I’m being emotional or just wanting for once to tell someone everything, EVERYTHING starting from square one. Then again, I think I would have to go to therapy.
make amends with myself then make amends with the people you need to. Start a clean slate, I want a clean slate.
even then, you were my best friend. Scratch that, I still consider you my best friend, I’ll fight fires to save you, if you fall, I wanna be able to get you back up or at least help. I miss you with all my heart, I miss hugging my best friend, I miss being able to talk to you and be rude and not care because we know we’re joking or at least, I hope you were but better out than in, right? I hate how our friendship seemed to end. If by chance you read this and know who this is for, I’m gonna miss you when you graduate and the reason why I can’t talk to you… it’s because you seem so happy, so comfortable and just fine with everything and with the problems I hear going about in your life, I don’t want to add to or take away any of your happiness. Of course, you feel as if we weren’t meant to be friends but I see so much old pictures of us and I can’t help but think how amazing of a friend you were, how much times you were there for me and how you would be so up for anything and that made me feel better about my life, having the ability to know you were around. Also, understand I’m not being selfish and keeping to myself but I just thought you look so fine with how things are going that I rather hurt at the fact we’re not friend’s than have you secretly complain about me barging back in. I just hate it when I see your mom around and she says hi or like even having you in class and I can’t even say a word to you. I hope for the best for you though and I miss you, I still care and I hate how abruptly our friendship ended, good luck.<3
Through everything we’ve been through, I still imagine us together. I still feel how nice it was to hold your hand, how it felt so right and perfect for our arms to be linked together. You give me this incredible feeling that’s so hard to deny yet I force myself to. I always argue how I don’t want a relationship and how I’m not the girl meant to be in a relationship but I always have this naïve idea that we’ll end up together. I actually see myself trying with you, trying to be in relationship. Although, at the same time I can’t imagine us being together, like it looks perfect but in the back of mind it won’t, it can’t be possible to workout without someone ultimately getting butt hurt. I’m not sure I would be able to ruin the picture in my head. The perfect picture I have of this imaginary “us”. I still smell your scent everywhere I go, or my mind is so use to it, I imagine it and gives me this perfect high. I made the biggest mistake of getting attached to you, no, I didn’t loose my virginity or anything sexual, I just got comfortable, I set myself up, I gave him my trust and he returned with his security. He made me feel safe, he made me feel alive. Cliché but I can’t get him out of my life nor can he get out of my head. I may sound stupid and naïve and this may sound like a fictitious love and all but truly this guy was so different from all the other guys, I can’t explain nor could I even pick a word to describe this feeling I have every time I’m with him but you know that feeling of accomplishing something big, getting what you craved for and just being on top of the world but feeling so much more? Even as I describe it, it seems un..understandable. He has this hold on me and I just can’t let go. He is different because no one ever gets my attention for this long, no one makes me want them more each day.